Approaching a new camino.
Tomorrow morning I set off on my fourth experience of the camino De Santiago pilgrimage in Spain. On this occasion I will do a much shorter route then in any of the Caminos I have made in the past. .I will walk the last 120km or so from Sarria to Santiago.
As I take some time out this tonight to contemplate the journey ahead, I find myself struggling with a resistance. A resistance that I find hard to define as any one particular thing. Perhaps it might be best described as a conglomeration of lots of minor thoughts and issues.
Tonight I have arrived in Sarria . I have left my home and family behind, and will travel yet again this well-known pilgrimage route.
I suspect that much of the resistance I feel could be down to the feeling that I am in some way cheating or fooling myself.
With two full distance Camino Frances behind me, as well as a single Camino Primativo I have perhaps judged my effort this time as somewhat futile or somewhat inferior when compared with this shortened or mini-version?
Be that the case or not, I do seem seem to lack the motivation,the drive and excitement that I have had in the past on commencing a Camino.
This has even spilled over into my preparation for this week long sojourn into the wilderness and I have found myself dithering around and being avoidant of the work must be done to prepare oneself both mentally and physically.
As the plane touched down today in Santiago, from where I would bus it back to Sarria, my state of unpreparedness or unreadiness has been running amok in my mind. Over the last few weeks the schools had reopened and I had returned to my work as a therapist with young people.
A number of times I’ve spoken to them about facing their fears and pushing back the beliefs in life that bind and limit them.
Now tomorrow morning, l an presented with an opportunity to practice what I have been preaching and do the same myself.
Buen Camino.
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